im ready for my close up

fall has got to be the best season ever. the crisp air, scarves, and boots. im so ready to lose the summer dresses and gladiator flats. too bad i bought some new ones and i havent worn them. i guess im ready for next year. speaking of fall, new beginnings. i feel like fall is the start of a new year. you forget those crazy hot and drunken nights of summer and start a whole new school year+ drunken cold nights. oh yeah back to the new, im starting to volunteer in the mission district of SF to work with a organization that is working (along with other orgs) to pass a new law regarding undocumented youth. it feels so right doing something for the community and i do recommend everyone to get familiar with the issues that occur in our communities. i promise its rewarding.

im getting sick. and i miss my friends because i feel like since school started to kick my ass i have been MIA. tip of the day: MUST FIND MOTIVATION.

peace

true life: i am an insomnaic

so here i am sitting up on my bed at 5 in the morning pretending i dont have to be up in less than 3 hours. i cant sleep though. All this tossing and turning is just not working for me. i even considered popping some nyquils, but then i dont want to be dependent on them. my sister told me that people who cannot sleep have a lot on their mind and that i should write down my thoughts and ill sleep at ease. let's hope this works:

all i can think about is shoes. yes, it may sound superficial but i wish i could buy every shoe that i loved in the world. oh and you know what doesnt help?
- having a laptop handy whenever something pops up in your mind and you google it.
- ondemand anything. including dvr. luckily i have caught up with what i need to catch up on.
- twitter: i swear i feel like i need to refresh it all the time even if i know its fucking 4am and people sleep.
- online window shopping. as if i am not in enough debt as it is. i feel like i have to have everything and anything.
- thinking about a book that i need to read by next week. oh and the online midterm that is also due next week.
- money doesn't grow on trees.
- NEW YORK is expensive. but i need to be there
- my phone blinking and i HAVE to see whats making it blink.
- the fact that the non profit i am trying to volunteer at is not contacting me even if i have tried to contact them
- online classes should have never been invented. lack of motivation and discipline.
- i really want to look into designing shoes. i think there is a market that is completely ignored.
- how dependent i am on the mall. which reminds me i have to find something to wear for taras unless i wear what i already have. dont you hate when you KNOW you have clothes that you havent even worn and you always seem to NEVER have anything to wear.
- being unemployed. this is my first time in a long time that i havent worked. life is fun but im suffering from fundsalow.
- the 8578957489789302 pages i have to read for my criminal justice class.
- my methodolgy teacher thinks shes so funny, too bad shes not. her sarcastic remarks are tired and she is not helpful.
- law schoool.
- i need a vacation. Though i am unemployed, this is the most stressed out i have been EVER. Who knew just being a full time student was harder than being both a fulltime worker and student.
- why i would rather spend whatever i have on useless materialistic things rather than save.
- OH my lack there of a savings account.
- 528 pgs to read / 5 days = about 100 pages a day

alright, so i let it all out. let's hope this works.

peace

please excuse me, im not thinking clear.

it might just be stress.

its hard keeping up with this blog when theres just so much going on. my life is great but maybe i lost sight of what i want from life. please dont get me wrong though, i love being this party girl living life and seizing every opportunity to enjoy it (with my occasional drinking habits LOL). however, i feel like maybe its taking over my life?

please start doin you, i been doin me.

trust, things around here are gonna be changing.

WHOS DOWN?

Lady GaGa & Kanye West Fall 2009 Tour Dates

Can’t wait to get those tickets to the Lady GaGa & Kanye West concerts? The unofficial tour dates for fall 2009 in the U.S. have been released.

Lady GaGa & Kanye West Fall 2009 Tour Dates

Oct 04, 2009 HSBC Arena Buffalo, New York
Oct 07, 2009 TD Banknorth Garden Boston, Massachusetts
Oct 10, 2009 1st Mariner Arena Baltimore, Maryland
Oct 11, 2009 Wachovia Center Philadelphia, Pennsylvania
Oct 13, 2009 Xcel Energy Center Saint Paul, Minnesota
Oct 15, 2009 Madison Square Garden Arena New York, New York
Oct 16, 2009 Nassau Coliseum Uniondale, New York
Oct 17, 2009 IZOD Center East Rutherford, New Jersey
Oct 28, 2009 Quicken Loans Arena Cleveland, Ohio
Oct 29, 2009 Verizon Center Washington, District of Columbia
Oct 31, 2009 Palace Of Auburn Hills Auburn Hills, Michigan
Oct 31, 2009 Palace Of Auburn Hills Auburn Hills, Michigan
Nov 02, 2009 United Center Chicago, Illinois
Nov 05, 2009 Toyota Center Houston, Texas
Nov 07, 2009 New Orleans Arena New Orleans, Louisiana
Nov 08, 2009 American Airlines Center Dallas, Texas
Nov 10, 2009 US Airways Center Phoenix, Arizona
Nov 11, 2009 Cox Arena at Aztec Bowl San Diego, California
Nov 13, 2009 Mandalay Bay Events Center Las Vegas, Nevada
Nov 14, 2009 Honda Center Anaheim, California
Nov 16, 2009 Staples Center Los Angeles, California
Nov 18, 2009 Save Mart Center Fresno, California
Nov 20, 2009 ARCO Arena Sacremento, California
Nov 21, 2009 HP Pavilion At San Jose San Jose, California
Nov 22, 2009 HP Pavilion At San Jose San Jose, California
Dec 02, 2009 Pepsi Center Denver, Colorado
Dec 03, 2009 Tingley Coliseum Albuquerque, New Mexico
Dec 03, 2009 Tingley Coliseum Albuquerque, New Mexico
Dec 05, 2009 Sprint Center Kansas City, Missouri
Dec 06, 2009 Scottrade Center Saint Louis, Missouri
Dec 09, 2009 Bank Atlantic Ampitheater FT Lauderdale, Florida
Dec 11, 2009 Philips Arena Atlanta, Georgia
Dec 12, 2009 Greensboro Coliseum Complex Greensburo, North Carolina
Dec 13, 2009 Norfolk Scope Arena Norfolk, Virginia
Dec 15, 2009 Mohegan Sun Arena Uncasville, Connecticut

courtesy of (http://www.inquisitr.com/28317/lady-gaga-kanye-west-fall-2009-tour-dates/)

you down and brown? be ready!

OMG ITS LOVE

forreal, i am in love. VINTAGE VERSACE 676.

its meant to be. and i WILL find a pair. mission starting NOW.

ALLOW ME TO REINTRODUCE MYSELF.

hi welcome, its beeeeen a minute. so shorteey made it a point that i stay relevant but i said i was lazy, but i can't be lazy in this business. so here i am, and from where i left off i have been living life. i chose to not be enslaved by the retail industry or I QUIT and its official i cannot do retail unless i am the consumer. i started thinking about my life and its current state and i think i gotta start doing things that i love and that will help me progress as a person that brings about some sort of change instead of just a mindless robot. so i've decided to look into internships that help the community and i want to start volunteer work. this way i can still build up my resume as well as my persona and quality of life.

summer '09 came and went. '06 > '09 if you ask me. ughh oh and im a senior in COLLEGE? WTHHHH that went by too fast. however, with these budgets cunts and furlough dicks i dont think ill be able to finish on time. i dont know how they expect this to work out. im over here begging for classes and have last priority because im not a graduating fall '09 senior. THATS A BIG F U in the face because i guess to these big shot education head guys im nothing and my money isnt the same coming from a possible spring 09 grad. well FUCK YOU because when i graduate and do BIG and BETTER THINGS and you ask for a fucking donation dont ask me.


ps. JAYZ- BLUE PRINT 3 got me hella inspired.

until tomorrow, maybe ill update with some pictures. sorry for the total bipolar-ness of the entry i just needed to vent.

peace